I Wish I Would Have Known

This is a blog post written by a friend of mine, and I will be posting my personal input tomorrow – but please comment on what you think about it.

I Wish I Would Have Known…

I wish I would have known before my husband and I were married, that a child is a gift from our Lord. I wish I would have known that being able to even conceive a child, is a blessing that is handed to us direct from God, Himself.

He gives us a gift, a present, wrapped in the most amazing, beautiful package He ever created. He puts into our arms a delicate being, in which He gives us the awesome responsibility, of raising and caring for that which He entrusted to us alone. Our Lord does not fail. He does not make mistakes.

Then why didn’t I trust Him?
Why didn’t I ask questions?
Why didn’t someone tell me?

Why didn’t I know that I was tossing away the opportunity for God to give me a gift? He would have wrapped it in a beautiful package ““ the perfect gift. And now, I’ll never know until I meet with Him in Heaven and ask,

“Lord, how many blessings would you have given to my husband and I?
How many gifts did I turn away?”

I’m sorry, God. So very sorry.

I know I have your forgiveness, but I still lie at night in the darkness of my room, and the silence is filled with the wondering of what may have been. For now that I know what true blessings are, I wonder and imagine how our life could have been. Not only for ourselves, Lord. But for the others that You could have reached through the lives of those that could have been. If only I would have known…

How do I write this, Lord? How do I bare my soul? How do I tell the world what they have to know? Children are a blessing, Lord. One of the greatest gifts of all, second only to the gift of grace, in which your son did fall.

My husband and I were married, Lord, not too many years ago. But in that short blink of time, what blessings could have grown? We chose not to trust you, Lord, in the conceiving of a child and took into our own sinful hands the power …

This is a blog post written by a friend of mine, and I will be posting my personal input tomorrow – but please comment on what you think about it.